It is crazy how you go from the highest of highs, to the lowest of lows. Lately, I feel like I'm standing still and everything around me is blasting right past me.
For the most part this past year was for me was pretty perfect in a sense, my kind of perfect I guess but lately I have been dealing with a ton of personal shit and my kind of perfect started crumbling around me. I get it, sometimes things have to get shaken up in order to get to another new kind of perfect, yes just like a martini.
But it was rough, and things that I never thought would've happened, happened. I felt one of my lowest of lows that I've had in a really long time, and it sucked. I felt like I was losing my best friend and there wasn't anything I could do about it. Hurtful things were said, things were thrown, and the people we thought we were, were in a sense fading away. Yup, just like Bella in twilight.
And while today is it easier to write this and sort of make light of the situation, it still hurts. It hurts that there are people out there who want to hurt you. They may not think that they did it consciously but deep down some where in their heart of hearts, it is exactly what they wanted to do. There is a choice in everything. I have made my own set of bad choices in my life and I am pretty sure this is part of the karma that I am receiving from it but I am taking it with my head held high.
In times like this there is blaming you can do or there is healing you can do and while blaming is the easier road to travel, it feels much better to pick yourself up, put on the fucking lipstick and make your life the life you want. If you want to continue your relationship do it, if you want to end it do it but make sure it is what YOU want, make sure the person YOU are at the end of the day, is who you like staring you in the mirror.
When I had originally started this post it was going in a completely different direction because I was still in the thick of the hurt and pain, I was feeling sorry for myself for things the things that happened and I'm not that person anymore.
Do I have moments of weakness? Absofuckinlutely. I am not perfect, I repeat I am NOT perfect.
Don't ever envy someone else's life because you never truly know what they are dealing with or going through, trust me. It is easy to post things on social media and act like nothing is going on, but it is also really hard. I sometimes want to post a picture but it isn't really how I feel and then I feel like a fraud.
I have desperately been trying to work on my makeup skills and one I have been wanting to master is applying false lashes, it seriously isn't as simple as it seems.
As with everything you watch a YouTube video and take a stab at it, my stab took a few peel off then reapplications which then had more glue, then I needed and gunk that I didn't want all over my lashes but I can say even with all of that it at the moment is better than having lash extensions only because of J.
When I had lash extensions J would keep pulling at my face and I felt like they were going to rip off my lashes, and honestly I couldn't deal with them myself. They were beautiful and maybe if they were done properly I'd love them more. But they weren't done properly and my real lashes were clumped together and it irritated me.
Do I like falsies sure but the work to do it all makes me appreciate lash extensions and the falsies also make me love the fact that I can easily remove them at the end of the night. Plus with Falsies you can change the look without having to wait months or pay tons of money.
I made the dinner the other night and it was pretty simple and delicious. I have been messing around lately with some fancier dinner ideas but I kept it pretty simple with this one.
You can totally use thicker chops if you like, if you do just factor in a longer cook time.
For this meal, I prepped my asparagus as normal lemon juice salt and pepper and before I plate it I’ll add some grated Parmesan for little extra umph.
I cut the red potatoes into quarters boiled with some salted water, once they were soft enough for a fork to go through without too much pressure, I added a tablespoon of butter, salt and some Italian season [not too much I’d say about 1 teaspoon because it is strong].
Before seasoning the pork I put a gracious amount of olive oil then I seasoned the pork with salt & pepper, thyme and garlic powder. When you use a dry ingredient like oregano, Italian seasoning, rosemary, or thyme a good rule of thumb is to put olive oil or a good cooking oil in order to not have the seasoning burn quickly. Keep the heat at medium/high temperature.
It went over well with the husband so I will probably try it again but we aren’t huge pork eaters besides bacon so it will be a few months.
Thanks for stopping by love, I’ll have my post about a bold red lip up tomorrow! ♥️
Okay if you are anything like myself you like crispy wings and fries but as I have aged, I feel like I can't handle all the fried foods like I used to.
Plus it's just not really healthy and with J starting to eat the food we are eating I'd rather do it as healthier as possible.
The other night E and I were craving wings but I wanted to try to make wings in the oven because it is really tough to hold J in one hand and then fry wings and fries in the other.
I found this recipe from evolving table and I doubled it because I had two packages of wings that I picked up from Costco [the pieces are already separated and took a lot of work out of cutting up wings].
I would also recommend grated Parmesan after the wings are fresh out the oven, and less black pepper.
Also the As Seen on TV baking dish did well with the fries but you have to put it on broil for about 6 minutes after you make them for an extra crisp. I'll use it for fries in the future but probably not anything else besides that.
I am so excited to share this cute ensemble with you guys, it is one of my favorite outfits.
I think I may love overalls more than I love dresses since J is still in the stage of wanting to be held, it is really hard to wear dresses without the constant need to pull something down or wear additional gear in hopes of not showing off your lady parts.
I found these really cute "my style" overalls which I feel like I could wear anywhere with or without J, I picked these cuties up at forever 21 online of course. And I am so glad I can transition these into fall since we are heading into fall.
I am so ready for the fall to get here and still be really comfortable plus who isn't ever ready to layer clothing. I can't wait to transition my wardrobe.
Overalls Forever 21 | Shirt Forever 21 | Bag Morning Lavendar | Shoes Converse | Watch MVMT | Bracelets Metal Marvels | Rings Forever 21
All photos by: Stacy Anderson Photography
Everytime I wear these jeans my niece and nephew always ask if they belong to my mom 🙄.
Um, no these mom jeans are all mine and I'm cool with that. I picked these up babies up on a whim at Forever 21 a few years back and while they were much darker before I washed them, once they started to fade with each wash the more I loved them.
I am pretty short about 5'0 [according to the measurements my husband took 😒] so pants are typically really long and I either have to buy petite or deal with a shitty length in jeans.
My go-to for jean buying lately has been American Eagle, their regular length fit pretty well and I'm not stuck with a shit ton of fabric or running to a tailor. Which honestly I don't have time for.
The shirt is Old Navy it is labeled a boyfriend shirt on their site and I have been in the market for the perfect white tee. When I first got it in my online order I wasn't impressed but as I started to wear it more, the more I kind of liked it.
The wide opening at the bottom of the t-shirt made me less self conscious of the extra baby weight I was still fighting off. It didn't hug in any of the unnecessary areas and felt pretty comfy too.
Overall this is a typical get out of the house outfit when running errands with J, I love dresses but it's not always a great 💡. Especially when you are lifting a 20+ lb baby in and out of a shopping cart.
The headband is from a good friend, it is literally the best headband especially for the on the go mom. It has a wire in it so it is really easy to put on and then twist the wire and keep it in place. It actually makes me excited for when my hair does finally grow back out 🙂 but with my short hair it gives me that little bit of extra flare even if it is just me out running errands. You can find her Etsy store by clicking here.
*all images provided by @stacyandersonphotography
Alright y'all, so I have been hearing about this new diet that is all the rave. Now you guys know how I feel about diets, they aren't really my thing.
But I don't mind finding recipes within a specific diet regime that works and taste delicious, especially if they are simple and easy to make.
Currently I have been hearing a ton of things about this "Ketogenic" diet, it is a low carb, appropriate protein, high fat diet that is beneficial for people with diabetes or a history of family diabetes, especially with me having gestational diabetes during pregnancy if we ever decide to have another one it is probably a great diet for me to be on.
You can read more about it here.
I found this recipe via a pin, of course 😉 and it was easy, delicious and sister in law approved. 😉
As I am sure you have heard, there was an insane hurricane also known as Harvey that devastated a lot of Houston. The city where I was born and raised [well technically I was raised in Humble, TX but you get my drift], had drastically changed in a matter of days.
As I drove home one night after the storm on my normal route home from my parents, my nephew and I saw all the devastation that Harvey has done in our area. In a place that we call home, to see people with everything that they have out on their lawn for trash to pick up and not knowing what the inside of their houses look like or that they don't have a car to drive to work or what's going to happen for dinner for them or that they have to sleep in that house with nothing in it except an air mattress.
It is so heartbreaking and just to know that my family was all fortunate enough to have houses not near water or not be in the situation that these families are in it's just heartbreaking.
Everyday it just makes me want to hug my son tighter and love on my house more and just be happy that we weren't in an affected area. I want to spend days and times that I can when I don't have my son helping the people that are around us
It is crazy because I used to walk into places around here and never felt like I should call this place home because it felt so disconnected and just to drive by someone's house that I don't even know and to be saddened by the fact that they don't have the things that they once had materialistic or not it's just heartbreaking. It is so sad and my heart hurts for all of these people and I wish and hope that I can do more and I know that all the monetary donations don't bring back everything that you once had that made your house feel like home. But, hopefully at some point we all can get back to a normal around here because I've grown up here, lived here all my life and it's sad to see all the stuff that's happening to all these people around us whether we know them or not.
If you would like to donate or help the victims of Harvey I ask that you chose wisely and locally.
Here are a few that are helping victims now:
So much yes in this.
I can't sit here and believe otherwise. you choose your actions, the people you surround yourself with and the love you allow yourself to give.
To say choosing lately hasn't been tough for me would be a lie.
Choosing to remain in a place I am no longer sure is for me because I am constantly questioning something I thought was perfect and whole. It is tough. It is really hard.
I don't know if the choices I make today I'll eventually regret in the future and trust me I have dealt with my fair share of regret. I am no perfect person.
All I can do is hope and pray that the things I choose to do today will be for a better future, or another learning experience but I can't sit here and dwell on something that I can't change.
And it's hard to be the bigger person and it's hard to not hope that everyone gets what they deserve. But I don't have enough room in my heart for hate, the old me maybe. I just can't keep it up.
I just want to be happy. Some days are just harder than others.
Sunday's for us lately have mostly been spent sitting poolside with the familia and for the most part we are pretty happy about it. Except for all of the things that have now piled up at the house that we need to recover from.
But there is something really special about sitting on your own couch and sinking into it. We honestly haven't had the chance to do it since J's arrival and it is really, really nice.
Today J and E fell asleep on the couch while I edited a shoot that I did earlier this morning, it was nice it was what Sunday's should be. If there were such a job as couch sitting, I'd be a professional.
Most Sunday's we spend rushing out to breakfast because eh cooking on Sunday's are the worst and best thing, just not breakfast.
Our lives have been pretty bleh, from busy work schedules, to crawling babies, dog's destroying our back yard and sprinkler system to personal life happenings. So taking today to just sit back, relax, grocery shop, and enjoy our house for once was pretty nice.
While we were out getting some groceries we decided to stop by this new pizza joint, I really don't want to share it with people but sometimes you can keep a good thing down. And I really love pizza and new places and quality time with my boys.
What is your favorite kind of Sunday?
Not sure you are a frequenter or you are new here but I recently decided that I wanted to start upping my game when it came to this little ole blog of mine.
I want to make sure that my readers know that there is effort put into it and while this was a hobby before, I really want to do this full time. Writing and photography have always been passions of mine and this blog gives me the place to perfect the two.
Last week I had no intention of going out or doing anything special but I really just wanted to feel pretty. I recently had a pretty shitty day and I was pretty down on myself. I got tired of sitting back and just going through the motions of the day without any real effort in myself. Don't get me wrong I really love not wearing make-up more so since having J because he has a habit of biting my face [don't ask] and I don't want the "chemicals" to be ingested by him.
No this isn't a plea for chemical-free make up it is just me being what I assume is super cautious even though as I type this he is chewing on a baby wipe [what is the deal with that anyways].
I did my make-up and decided to take a couple of self-portraits which I have been trying to achieve a great SP for quite some time and I don't just mean a selfie, even though I do love me some selfies.
Make Up Details
Foundation - Makeup Forever Ultra HD Foundation
Concealer - Nars Med/Dark Caramel
Highlight - Hard Candy Twinkle Star
Lipstick - Milani Matte Darling #74
Mascara - Almay One Coat Thickening
Blush - MAC Fleur Power
Highlight/Contour Stick - Hard Candy Deep
I took a few in a well lit area and then went upstairs for a little less light so you could see the difference.