hello there, loves!
It is officially 2018 and whilst I have been under the weather and so had J, the other day I had a moment where I stopped and looked at myself in the mirror and was kind of in a little bit of a shock/awe state. I was genuinely amazed at all my body has gone through and while I know it is less than most, and more than some it doesn't take away what it has accomplished.
I have to put in kind of a disclaimer here, this year's body goals are simply to eat better, and live better than last year. I am in no way shape or form going to put some ideal image in my head in hopes of being a thinner me, I simply want to enjoy the body I have by eating better when possible, and doing more with life in general.
I guess it's kind of inevitable to put up one of these post for the new year, and yeah I'll probably do the whole new year, new me thing but I wanted to put out there how exceptionally proud I am of my body.
Not only did it grow a baby, but it was sliced open to bring that beautiful, amazing, miracle of ours into this world and I don't think I have ever been so thankful of my body in it's state as it is today. I have the worst posture, I know.
I stretched y'all my skin hung and looked gross for a while there and there were days I was like ugh, who wants to see this naked? I had developed this bump of "skin" I guess from J sitting so low my entire pregnancy and I thought it would never go away. I didn't think I would look good in lingerie, or a bikini ever again. And maybe I don't but I am still going to rock the hell out of them.
I struggled with self-confidence for all of my life, I hated being in front of the camera and I hated my smile [I still want braces], and I was never, ever the girl who got the guy [with the exception of E].
This year my body goal isn't to necessarily lose weight but to eat better as much as possible, to run more because it is my best stress reliever and I really do love it, and to just tone my body if I can. Plus can I get my booty back? I lost that thing mid pregnancy and haven't found it yet. 🤦🏽♀️
NOTE TO SELF:
My one tip for myself and you as well is to do as much as you possibly can without making it too hard on yourself because once you start making this a job or something else to do on your list you will grow to hate it, and your goals will get tossed to the side and you'll be left as you were by March or sooner. My plan is to do better this year, I just know that there is a better me out there I just have to get rid of a lot of shit.
I am also currently reading "Get Your Shit Together" by Sarah Knight, I literally just started but I love it so far. And while I am already feeling like I am going to accomplish great things this year.